The Story - Part 3

Steph's rejection hurt her. She felt inadequate, it confirmed her fears of limerence. It reiterated what she had known, that she could not fit in his world, could not form a part of his world and yet could not forget him. She created a post of her love for him and told him of her lucid dreams. He left a romantic note as comments. He said he created a blog LoveconquersDepression and was planning to write. She was delighted. She attempted to explain why she fell for him. She felt that he came at her like a ocean hide hide drowning her with care and fun and joy. she enjoyed drowning and being washed away by the tide. She liked him for who he revealed himself to be. He replied that at first he was nervous and was not sure what drove him. But that he felt a little bit more confident in the relationship. He was calmer now but his moods might fluctuate later. 

She expressed surprise that he liked her at all. He said that their tastes in books, music align which suggests that their energies align and we pick up on subtle clues. She said that he calms her down and he said that she calms him as well.  He felt that she likes the sad side of him and he is like Flyn Rider who has a heart of gold tinged with sadness. He has a deep sadness and he words the sentences to show the sadness in a way that is artsy and that she picks up on it. He thought she liked the romance, sadness, confidence and idealism in him. He felt that it has to be bad and should break the rules. He asked her about her parents, if they would accept him. She replied honestly that they may not but maybe with age, they had changed and she was not sure about how they might react. He told her he checked the weather of her place and surprised her by suggesting a few of the places near her home for a walk.

She described about falling for him similar to learning about pollination and picking up a flower, peeling of its petals to see the stalk, stigma and the to see how flowers become fruits. She said that he was like the dancing petals of a flower when he talked about things that excite him and getting to know him was like peeling the petals of a flower and the more she learned the more she was delighted. He said that he felt he could fill a need in her but the long term effect could be pain. She explained that she could not have an affair she wanted a marriage, a family and every commitment that goes with it. He said it was scary to him because it would harm so many people. 

That day she asked him about his education and work experience. He had finished his education and had three degrees in Physics, Sociology and Computers. He then started a company in IT with a friend and worked for multiple companies. That was the first time he mentioned his trauma. He did not want to talk about it as it was giving him a headache.