Abandoned

Have any of u broken up with a friend? 

How did u cope? 

Does it hurt that they just dont give a damn and can leave so easily?

Did they really care? Was it all lies? I can't think that it was all lies. That just seems so impossible to believe. But it has to be lies, if they can leave cruelly. Not knowing it making me so angry, but the anger is just my sadness hiding.

I feel like its a playbook for some people, both men and women, not a gender thing.

 They have some void in their life, to fill it they seek company of a nice person. 

They suck their energies, weave fantasises, push boundaries and mesmerise them.

Once they realise the nice person is way into them, they realise the reality that the other person is a living, breathing being, not a toy, thing who they can say whatever they want to. 

Then, they get spooked.  So they disappear. It is so easy for them to disappear because nothing about them is real. Its only fantasy.

And because it is a lie, a fantasy to them, it doesn't hurt them.

They can just find another victim. To do the same thing to other people over and over.

I dont really care about acquaintances or friends talking behind my back or making fun of me or not helping me even though they receive help. I just let go. Because its ok I didn't care all that deeply, we were just friends for a while, it was good while it lasted. 

But when I care truly and deeply its hard to let go.